Where Are You Walking With Spirit? A Spirit Connection Reflection...

Over the past several weeks, we have spent a great deal of time talking about Spirit. We have explored Faith, guidance, surrender, impartiality, Co-Creation, and what it means to stop thinking of the Divine as something far away and begin experiencing Spirit as a Companion.

We have talked about asking for guidance and then having the courage to follow it. We have explored the silence that sometimes follows prayer and the possibility that silence does not mean we have been ignored. Sometimes there is simply nothing more to say. We have talked about Spirit not wasting notes on the page and about our responsibility as the human half of Co-Creation to take action when guidance has been given.

All of that brings us to a question we have not really asked: What is my relationship with Spirit actually like?

Not what do I believe about Spirit, what religion or philosophy have I studied, or how often do I meditate, pray, attend services, pull cards, light candles, burn sage, sound a singing bowl, or post something inspirational on social media. When nobody is watching, when the room is quiet, when life isn't cooperating, and when Spirit doesn't seem particularly interested in explaining itself, how much do I actually trust the Companion I say walks beside me?

This Saturday night at Blue Feather Healing, we will gather for From Fear to Faith: An Interactive Journey into Trusting the Divine Within. This will not be an evening where you simply sit in a chair and listen to someone talk about Faith. It is intentionally interactive. We are going to ask questions, share experiences, challenge some of the ways we have learned to think about Fear and Faith, and create space for each person to explore their own relationship with the Divine.

As I thought about that Gathering, something occurred to me. Before we can meaningfully explore moving from Fear toward Faith, it might be helpful to know where we are standing right now. If I don't recognize the places where Fear is still directing my relationship with Spirit, how can I begin to understand what moving toward greater Trust might look like?

That is what this week's reflection is about.

For those joining us Saturday evening, think of this as a starting point. Your answers may help you arrive with a clearer understanding of your own relationship with Spirit. You may discover that Trust comes easily in some areas but disappears the moment you don't receive an answer. You may realize that you are comfortable asking for guidance but struggle to act when it arrives. You may discover that you have tremendous Faith when life is going well, but when circumstances become painful, you immediately begin questioning whether Spirit is still beside you.

Those discoveries give us somewhere to begin Saturday night.

And because the evening is interactive, you do not need to arrive having figured any of this out. Quite the opposite. Bring your questions. Bring the places where you surprised yourself. Bring the answers you wanted to argue with. Bring the places where Fear still has a voice and the places where Faith has already become something much deeper than belief.

Come knowing where you are, not believing you need to be somewhere else.

This is not a test of how spiritual you are. There are no enlightened honor students here, and there is certainly no failing grade. Spirit is not standing somewhere with a clipboard wondering why you missed question seven. This is simply a mirror, an opportunity to see the relationship as it exists today before we begin exploring where it may be asking us to go.

Answer as you are today, not as you believe you should be.

For each statement, give yourself a score:

1 – Rarely true of me

2 – Sometimes true of me

3 – Often true of me

4 – Usually true of me

5 – This is how I live

Don't spend too much time thinking about your answers. Sometimes the first response is the one underneath all the spiritual editing we humans are remarkably good at doing.

~The Spirit Connection Reflection~

1. I speak with Spirit during ordinary moments of my day, not only when I need help.

2. I can recognize moments of connection without needing them to be dramatic, mystical, or extraordinary.

3. When I pray or ask for guidance, I also make room to listen.

4. I am willing to receive guidance that is different from the answer I wanted.

5. When guidance comes clearly, I do not continually ask Spirit to confirm it because I am afraid to act.

6. When I receive only a word, feeling, image, knowing, or simple direction, I can accept that I may not be given the reason why.

7. When I ask for guidance and receive nothing, I can consider that silence may mean I should stay the course.

8. I can distinguish, at least some of the time, between the quiet voice of intuition and the much louder voice of Fear.

9. When something painful happens, my first assumption is not that Spirit has abandoned me, punished me, or stopped listening.

10. I can allow another person's Blessing to exist without interpreting it as evidence that mine has been withheld.

11. I am becoming comfortable with the idea that Spirit may be impartial even when life does not feel fair.

12. I can remain in Faith even when I cannot see how the situation will resolve.

13. I understand that asking Spirit for guidance does not remove my responsibility to make decisions and take action.

14. I do not expect Spirit to continually rescue me from consequences created by choices I knowingly made.

15. When I recognize that I have moved away from guidance, I can return without believing I must first earn my way back.

16. Gratitude is part of my relationship with Spirit even on days when nothing remarkable happens.

17. I increasingly experience Spirit as a Companion rather than an authority I must impress, appease, or fear.

18. I am willing to accept that deeper spiritual understanding may bring greater responsibility rather than an easier life.

19. I can take a step forward without requiring Spirit to show me the next ten.

20. I understand that Co-Creation means Spirit may provide the guidance, but I must provide the movement.

Before adding anything up, take a moment and simply look at your answers. Which questions made you uncomfortable? Which one did you immediately want to explain? Which answer produced that little voice saying, "Yeah, but you don't understand my situation..."?

Pay attention to that one. It may tell you considerably more than your final score.

Now Add Your Score

Your total will fall somewhere between 20 and 100, but before we look at what that number might reflect, remember something important: higher does not mean better. This is not a ladder toward enlightenment. These are simply ways of describing where relationship may be expressing itself in your life right now.

We move between these places. Life can shake our confidence. Grief can change the way we pray. Fear can temporarily make a Companion feel very far away. Growth is rarely a straight line, and there may even be areas of your relationship where you are a Companion while another part of you is still very much a Seeker.

20–35: The Seeker

Something is calling. You may believe there is more to life than what can be touched and measured, but relationship with Spirit may still feel uncertain, distant, or occasional. You may find yourself reaching toward Spirit most strongly when life becomes difficult.

There is nothing wrong with Seeking. In fact, Seeking may be the first act of relationship. Your invitation is simple: begin the conversation. Not only when you need something. Talk to Spirit while driving, making coffee, walking the dog, or standing outside looking at a ridiculous New Mexico sunset. Relationship begins by spending time together.

36–50: The Recognizer

You have begun noticing. Coincidence sometimes feels like more than coincidence. Intuition occasionally arrives before logic catches up. You may have experienced moments when something inside you simply knew. Spirit is becoming more than an idea.

Your invitation is to begin trusting what you recognize without needing every experience to become proof. You do not need fireworks every time the Divine enters the room. Sometimes Spirit whispers because Spirit is already close.

51–65: The Listener

The conversation has changed. You are beginning to understand that prayer is not simply speaking. You are making room for response. You are learning the language through which Spirit seems to communicate with you, and you are beginning to recognize the difference between guidance and your own desire for a particular outcome.

Your invitation is to become comfortable with simplicity. If you ask for direction and receive one word, one word may be enough. If you receive nothing, consider that there may be nothing you are being asked to change. Listening also means learning when the conversation is complete.

66–80: The Truster

You are beginning to move. Faith is becoming less about believing that Spirit exists and more about living as though the relationship is real. You may still question. You may still become frightened. You may even occasionally ask for seventeen confirmations because apparently the first sixteen were insufficient. Welcome to being human.

But something has changed. You are learning that guidance does not always come with explanation, and Faith sometimes means taking the next step before the road becomes visible. Your invitation is surrender without passivity. Trust the guidance, then move your feet.

81–90: The Companion

Spirit is becoming part of ordinary life. The relationship is no longer confined to prayer, meditation, ceremony, crisis, or sacred spaces. Spirit rides in the passenger seat, walks into the grocery store, sits beside you while you drink your morning coffee, and remains quietly present when you do not know what to do.

You have begun understanding that companionship does not require constant conversation. Sometimes walking together is enough. Your invitation is to continue releasing the distinction between the spiritual parts of your life and everything else. There may not be two lives. There may only be Life.

91–100: The Co-Creator

Guidance and action have begun moving together. You understand that Spirit is neither your servant nor your rescuer, but you also understand that you were never expected to navigate this life entirely alone. You ask, you listen, you move, you adjust, and when necessary, you return.

Increasingly, you understand that spiritual Mastery is not control over life. It is the willingness to participate fully in relationship with the Divine while accepting that you will not always understand where the road leads. Your invitation is not to climb higher. It is to go deeper, because the more conscious the relationship becomes, the more responsibility we carry for what we do with what we have been shown.

Your Number Isn't the Most Important Part

Now go back and find the three questions where you gave yourself the lowest scores. Forget your total for a moment and read those three again.

There may be your invitation.

Maybe you trust Spirit beautifully until Spirit becomes silent. Maybe you listen well until the answer isn't the one you wanted. Maybe you believe completely in Divine guidance but still wait for Spirit to take the action that belongs to you. Maybe you can see Grace everywhere except in the life of someone you believe doesn't deserve it. Or maybe you have spent years talking to Spirit but have never really considered Spirit a Companion.

None of those discoveries are failures. They are doors. The beautiful thing about a door is that we don't have to understand everything waiting on the other side before we reach for the handle.

We have spent a great deal of time talking about Faith as though it were something we possess. I am beginning to wonder if Faith is better understood as something we practice. Every time we listen without demanding an explanation, remain steady in the silence, or accept guidance and take responsibility for the human action required to bring it into the world, we practice Faith. Every time we turn toward Spirit simply because we want the company rather than because we need something, the relationship deepens.

If you are joining us Saturday night for From Fear to Faith, bring this reflection with you, even if only in your thoughts. Remember, this is an interactive Gathering. We are not gathering because someone at the front of the room has all the answers. We are gathering because there is something powerful about bringing our questions, experiences, Fear, Faith, doubt, and Trust into the same room and exploring them together.

Knowing where you are gives you a place from which to participate. Maybe one of these questions exposed something you want to explore. Maybe someone's experience Saturday night will speak directly to an answer you struggled with here. Maybe you will hear yourself answering one of our questions and suddenly realize that something you thought was Fear has quietly been becoming Faith for a very long time.

That is the invitation.

Come knowing where you are, not believing you need to be somewhere else.

Whatever number you arrived at today, don't wear it as a label. Don't compare it with anyone else's, and please don't try to get a hundred next week. Simply notice where you are. Notice where Spirit already feels close, where Fear still occupies the chair beside you, and where you are being invited into greater Trust, greater Faith, greater Love, and greater Mastery.

Spirit isn't grading this test. Spirit already knows exactly where you are.

The question is whether you do. Blessings, Love & Light...